What’s the opposite of going out?
Maybe I’m entering a reclusive phase. Maybe I’m giving in to the fact that work is starting to take precedence over everything else. Maybe it’s the fucking rain that doesn’t seem to let up.
Even a month ago, I was going out 6 nights out of 7. My liver was barely on speaking terms with me. Now, it’s all I can do to make myself get out of the house once during the week and maybe once during the weekend. Maybe. And actually I don’t even want to go out. Just not in the mood.
I’m nesting I, guess? Calming my life down. Getting back to myself. Settling in for the crunch. Going to order a table and chairs very, very soon if I can just make up my mind. Finally got around to buying a matching bookshelf to the one I’ve had for years to make my apartment feel like it is not so sparse.

Someday I’ll find the balance. Some going out. Some staying in. But for now, I’m in.

