oddgirl’s blog

I feel like I should do something special to celebrate my 100th blog entry, but all I really want to do is go to sleep.

I’ve only missed two plane flights in my life and one of them was the day before yesterday. The only thing we had to do that day was get on that plane, but somehow we managed to get to the airport way late. That meant getting up at 4:45 am yesterday and trying to get on standby (successful) and then be able to stay awake at work all day (moderately successful, but kinda cranky).

Palm Springs was awesome. The weather was great and the kittens were adorable. If you need one, let me know – I can get you a deal. (free)

Great to see old friends – really miss that kind of comfortable companionship sometimes. Different than new friends. Got me to wondering what the line is that is crossed that makes new friends into old friends. Is there one magical beer shared or something more earthshattering? or nothing at all, just that feeling is there one day.

i will never need to spend $144 on this book

i’ve gotten a couple of emails from people asking me if i’m ok after reading a couple of blog posts a couple weeks back. thanks for all that – i’m ok. i do have some stuff going on, but it’s just stuff, y’know? life is like that.

so thanks, tho.

i don’t remember the last time i worked on my birthday, but next year i won’t be able to say that, since i’m here at work today. i admit i’m cranky about it – it’s not even like i’ll be having an easy day of it. the main reason i’m here at all is that i have to give a presentation to a bunch of the executives of the company about my team’s plan for the next year.

on the other hand, i had a great weekend up in Tahoe. took a glider ride over the lake and Heavenly ski area on saturday and then skiied yesterday. i haven’t been on skis in eons. next weekend i’m taking a three-day Palm Springs thing – that should be fun and i’ll get that 3-day thing goin’ on. i think this week is going to be long, tho.

http://www.michaelkelly.fsnet.co.uk/karl.htm

i’m all for blogs and freedom to publish and god knows i’ve written some inane stuff in my time, but i’m not even sure what to make of this stuff.

having recently been required to have the interior of my relatively new car detailed due to an unfortunate incident with my cat, I have been particularly sensitive to links about cats. really wish i could read japanese so I could understand why they do this to their pets. what must the PetOffice look like when fully staffed?

having dreams about sex is not nearly as good as having sex. and having dreams about work is usually much worse than actually working. wierd how that works.

this little guy is soooo busted.

that last entry is admittedly bleak. but when you are trying to come to peace with abandoning hope for something you had hope for it is hard not to sound bleak….

i’m entering into acceptance, i guess. sucky, crappy acceptance.

We make choices all the time. Some are really easy and some, well some just aren’t. I have a feeling that I’m going to have to make some choices soon and I’m thinking that they are going to be of the not easy type.

I’m going to have to find my strength somewhere. Not sure where it’s going to come from. feeling scared. terrified almost to the point of inaction. plans wrecked, hopes dashed, lonely, worried.

wow. what a depressing post.